Lonely But Not Alone
I imagine I'm not the only one with this struggle as it is a huge problem in modern society, especially among Gen Z. I feel like I'm around people constantly whether online or off, yet I feel lonely.
I see other people spending time with their friends, laughing, talking, just being together...
Due to life circumstances, I'm unable to leave my house much. I'm constantly seeking for friendship online albeit I'd rather have friends in real life. I've searched many online games that are specifically targeted towards socializing, but they all have the same problems, the biggest one being that they're flooded with kids.
I've never had social media because it never appealed to me. It never seemed like it was actually social. I have many hobbies that can be done alone, but that only goes so far. Humans are social, and I in particular am very extroverted. On top of that, I have depression, which has been especially bad lately due to various things (including not being able to get out of my house), and this has made me disinterested in my hobbies.
I'm not in school anymore, I don't have a way to get a job, so I'm very isolated. I don't live alone, but like I said, being lonely and being alone are not the same thing.
My life seems very bleak and meaningless. I feel a great lack of purpose. I feel trapped.